March 9th, 2011

i don't want to say good bye.

not yet.

not ever.

and yet.

it's been a long time coming, three months, nearly four, since the accident
and you've been suffering, we've been suffering
but i've been putting this off, this
"saying goodbye" this, "letting you go"

not yet.

and yet.

i can't keep paying the upkeep, the maintenance, on a body so badly damaged
i can't afford to keep you, splintered like you are
for sentimental reasons
my heart couldn't take it, either.

and so.

and yet.

and now.

it's time.