March 2nd 2011

Almost Three Months

It has been nearly three months since we've spoken
Since we've exchanged words
language with concrete meanings

oh,


It has been almost three months since
I've opened up and let the feelings out
since I've spoken the thruth

I have

It has been much too long since
I've asked you to listen and yet
you've been waiting here all along

missed this

This is rough. This isn't ready. But it's here. I'm here. I never left
just hid away for awhile.

december 13th, 2010

tired isn't the right word for it
exhausted is closer
heavy is best
but your limbs are moving through warm water
and you are too
tired
too heavy
too much at a loss
to find the best word to describe this.

december 5th 2010

writing

how is it that something that is always at the forefront of my mind
is somehow always an afterthought?

November 14th, 2010

metaphor:

i was waiting for
your fever
to break

November 11th, 2010

we have backslid
into a time of silence
when the empty spaces between us
were filled by so much more than the distance it takes to get from here to there

November 10th, 2010

what a difference three days makes

a crashing down a pulling apart of dreams
plans unravel
spin out

you come home to an empty house and it makes you want to run screaming out the door
take me to a place where people are
get me out of my own sadness
make me part of the world

you were so close to love
and now love is so far away

November 7th, 2010

this is happening: a quickening, a pulsing, a change

we are not ready / we have been ready for weeks
change is coming and we are busy
packing / unpacking
talking about nothing but this coming event / talking about anything but this coming event
you want this and you don't want this
i want this and i am afraid

anticipation is both dread and delight
say it: you have been careful for what you wished for and it's suddenly here.